Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Locked


      The tea party wasn't a success, as I'm still lost. Lost in my mind, locked in a delusion. Eating doesn't even feel real. One cookie alone is enough to make me feel 10x bigger. Maybe because I'm already so full. Full of fear and regrets.
      Sinking, shrinking, until I'm drowning in my own tears. This room has taken control of me mentally and physically. I have the key in my hand...all I have to find is the lock.

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  1. Whatever you're experiencing right now, i know you can do it. Have faith :)
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    1. Thank you Arlyn. I have hope, but it only goes so far. God works in mysterious ways.

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  2. Harlynn, I have been there. For each, the amount of time we spend there differs. You will come out of it. I'm praying for you doll.
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    1. Aww..thank you Kim. I suppose it's a good thing I at least have the key.

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  3. I feel that cookie, like literally, whenever i eat em i feel like i have to burn the sweetness and fats. Same goes with life, we have guilty pleasures. Whatever it is, i'd say, take your time to reflect, slow, tuck in, it's ok to be alone sometimes and be emotional. These times make us realize things and discover ourselves. :)

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    1. And not realizing what you had, until it's gone.

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